updated my pregnancy updates yet but on our last consultant appointment we decided that i was going to have a delayed elective c-section. Usually a elective is done on the day you turn 39 weeks but as i was still a little unsure about a natural birth the consultant has decided to delay it for a couple of days in the hope i go into labor naturally. I wont lie im so scared about having a c-section but i feel like its the rite thing for me to do. I have been a emotional wreck the last few weeks and not a day has gone by where i haven't thought about how this baby is coming!
I have had my pre op appointment, where they go through whats going to happen, take bloods and have given me some tablets to take the night before and on the day before my operation. She asked if i was ok and i burst into tears. I think i have so many emotions going through my head and it didnt help that on monday lilly fell down the stairs and cracked her head open and we had to have a ambalence come and check her then have her head glued. This scared me so much and i have never left Lilly for a night or even a day and my anxiety is already through the roof and having this happen is making me more upset.
Having said that at the pre op the midwife told me that baby boys head is extremly low and not to be surprised if i go into labour naturally and low and be hold i have been having mild contractions all night which have eased off slightly but are still coming so i may actually be having this baby naturally! Who knows! But i did have contractions for 4 days before Lilly made her way into the world so im not holding up any hope. The pains are really strong in my back and also in my legs and when i spoke to my midwife she said it could just be him pushing on a nerve.
With all the scared and sad emotions about leaving Lilly, i cant tell you how excited i am to meet this Little man! To know that by the weekend he will be in my arms is such an amazing feeling! We currently have 2 names, Mikes favorite and mine and we are waiting to see when he is born what we think suits him best.
I will update my instagram @aprilandlilly when he is born most likely if you are interested :)
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